I killed my child. I was supposed to skin him. There was a partner there with me. I didn't have a knife. My friend didn't have a knife. Some old guy there was disgusted with me and he threw me 3 towels to pick up the small body with to skin. I told myself I could do it. I didn't want the old guy to know I never skinned anyone before. I picked up the body by its feet and held him upside down. I had a small knife. I couldn't do it. I woke up
Dreams can often be a reflection of our deepest fears and anxieties, and this dream appears to be laden with a sense of guilt, inadequacy, and fear of failure. It is important to note that dreams are symbolic, and the images and actions within them do not necessarily reflect literal intentions or desires. The killing of your child in the dream could symbolize a sense of internal conflict or a fear of causing harm to someone close to you, either emotionally or mentally. The act of skinning the child could represent a desire to remove certain aspects of yourself or a need to hide certain emotions or insecurities from others. The presence of a partner who also lacks a knife may indicate a shared sense of inadequacy or powerlessness in dealing with these fears and challenges. The old man's disgust towards you could suggest feelings of shame or judgment, possibly emanating from your own perceived imperfections or insecurities. The three towels thrown by the old man may represent an opportunity to cover up or mask the situation, but your hesitation in carrying out the act indicates a struggle with taking definitive action or confronting these fears directly. Overall, this dream seems to highlight a struggle with facing difficult emotions, fear of inadequacy, and a desire to hide certain aspects of yourself from others. It may be beneficial to explore these feelings further in waking life and consider seeking support or guidance from others if needed.